i used to be [[much]] more muchier....
as tears fill in my eyes {for no real reason at all}, i am [[for once]] at a loss for words. Life is just {alkdjfasdfjas;dlfasdf;ldsfsadf} right now; and if anyone knows what this -----> {alkdjfasdfjas;dlfasdf;ldsfsadf} means, please let me know because I've been searching and searching and [[searching]] and i just can't figure it out. It's not just {one} thing that's wrong, and it's not {everything}, but I don't know {what} [[thing]] it is. If anyone is still following me, you've {understood} more than i have.
i have come to find that life is all about {pretending}. {pretend} to happy. {pretend} to be okay. {pretend} that you like it. {pretend}. {pretend}. {pretend}. i [[personally]] am sick of pretending. it's just never felt so.... [[wrong]]. so, how do i bring back my {muchness}?
